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[minervasolo]

Winter makes me want. Shopping when it starts getting dark before the shops close makes me want. And it's never anything in particular. It's everything. Especially expensive things. I want to pamper myself. Treat myself. That's a throwback from christmas shopping, where I'll buy something for myself each time I go out, as well as all the xmas presents, and it generally takes me two or three trips to get everyone's gifts, so I come off quite well ^_^ But I also associate winter with velvet and jewellry and long dresses, and even though i know I never wear them or even look at them, i want to buy them anyway. I also get stationery cravings, and go and buy hundreds of notebooks and pens and arts and crafts stuff. Did it again today, bought a notebook for the sole reason the cover looked nice. oops. Sw Gene on hte high street, which was good because I haven't seen her for ages, and ran into Lizzard in the bank. Chequee ought to mean money soon! Didn't get the present for grosie I planned to get, but I bought her a calendar instead, and will probably suppliment it if I go in again over half term.

I had a dream last night. I was at teh hospital, for this appointment I've got in November, and for no apparant reason Anria and Sel were there, as well as my mother. Despite having been told it would be a private thing, the doctors and nurses were happy to have every one around. I got really nervous, and I could hear my heatt beating really luod, which was bad because stress makes injections hurt more because you tense up. And guess what, I had to give myself an injection (why they couldn't do it wasn't adequately explained). They decided that to give my some privacy they'd send me down to a sub basement room. Sel asked if she could come with me, nad I said yes. I was almsot out the door when Anria hissed 'sel', really angrily, so i turned back and said "you can come to, if you like," because Anria clearly felt she had much more right to be with me than Sel. So we went down to teis sub basement room, opened the door, and it turned out to be a common room area of the med staff. We went and leant against the kitchen area, and I never actually got around to giving myself the injection before i woke up, very annoyed to hae woken at normal school time during half term. So annoyed, in fact, that I went back to sleep! I can work out where most of the influences for tehdream came from, from the last few days, but it was really odd hearing my heart going, and I think it actually was, just from dream-stress.

must go and start filling new notebook up. so pretty!

Comments

[almighty-frog.livejournal.com]

Some dream analyser could make a whole lot of money out of you, hon. ^_^

[minervasolo.livejournal.com]

Unless that dream analyser was me. Seriously, I can identify large chunks of that dream. You mentioning that you;d come in to find Sel and Jacobi, and sat on hte other side of the room, for example, and me a few days earlier going in and speaking to them, and something Sel said then. And the rest? Nervousness about hospital apoointment, fear of lack of privacy, watching a bit of a program about prayer and terminal patients...