yesterday's rant
10/7/03 05:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
minervasoloThis is last night's rant, but stupid LJ isn't working when i try to update (we're talking over an hours worth of failed attempts, and another half hour this morning!). Even in the cold light of dawn, the sentiment still stands, though it comes across a lot angrier that I actually am. I'd edit it, but if I start doing that I might as well delete it, and this ought to be said. I get worried and upset over little things occasionally, and people ought to know that these little things do upset me. Especially when they're not so little.
Oh look, didn't update this morning either. Grr.
People should talk when they're upset, or something's bothering them. I keep finding all this out second hand, and it's getting tiresome. I need to be told things as it is, or I never find out. Didn't know that S hated T until K was told, about 2 months ago. I want to help, but I can't if I'm oblivious.
I can't read body language, people. Don't know why, but I'm remarkably inept at it, and I makes me feel damn awkward! I want to listen, to sympathise, to help, but I always end up feeling tactless because I didn't know it was an area that requires tact. If you don't tell me, don't ry and talk about it with me later and expect me to understand. I'll just nod and 'mm' and wonder why this has happened all of a sudden.
So talk. Tell me. Even if you think it's something I don't want to hear. Because I do, I really do. Even if it's someone saying really bitchy stuff about me, and you agree and joined in, tell me what they said, tell me what you said. I won't be hurt. Maybe even amused (that's been my reaction in the past). I will be hurt if you expect me to know something's wrong and get huffy because i'm not changing or apologising.
I'm just tired of finding things out from people who don't even know those concerned. Jaime was complaining about the same thing a few days ago, but she really has no idea.
Oh look, going to bed in a bad mood again. Did this last night, took me til 2 to sleep, and now I've finished HP it'll probably take me longer tonight. If I lie and stew for a bit, I'll start being really bitter and moody, and if it lasts til I wake, you may actually find out what I occasionally think of you people.
Going to have not only full compliment of people tomorrow, but extras too. And I am aware that of 'you people', only one will read this. And I'm emailing you.
Argh! Update, dammit!
Oh look, didn't update this morning either. Grr.
People should talk when they're upset, or something's bothering them. I keep finding all this out second hand, and it's getting tiresome. I need to be told things as it is, or I never find out. Didn't know that S hated T until K was told, about 2 months ago. I want to help, but I can't if I'm oblivious.
I can't read body language, people. Don't know why, but I'm remarkably inept at it, and I makes me feel damn awkward! I want to listen, to sympathise, to help, but I always end up feeling tactless because I didn't know it was an area that requires tact. If you don't tell me, don't ry and talk about it with me later and expect me to understand. I'll just nod and 'mm' and wonder why this has happened all of a sudden.
So talk. Tell me. Even if you think it's something I don't want to hear. Because I do, I really do. Even if it's someone saying really bitchy stuff about me, and you agree and joined in, tell me what they said, tell me what you said. I won't be hurt. Maybe even amused (that's been my reaction in the past). I will be hurt if you expect me to know something's wrong and get huffy because i'm not changing or apologising.
I'm just tired of finding things out from people who don't even know those concerned. Jaime was complaining about the same thing a few days ago, but she really has no idea.
Oh look, going to bed in a bad mood again. Did this last night, took me til 2 to sleep, and now I've finished HP it'll probably take me longer tonight. If I lie and stew for a bit, I'll start being really bitter and moody, and if it lasts til I wake, you may actually find out what I occasionally think of you people.
Going to have not only full compliment of people tomorrow, but extras too. And I am aware that of 'you people', only one will read this. And I'm emailing you.
Argh! Update, dammit!
