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minervasoloI had a dream last night. my group of friends were all at someone's house, and mJ was flirting very obviously with T, right in front of S. Obviously flirting as in kissing. So everyone went upstairs to talk and get it all sorted out, but for some reason I didn't follow immediately. Roz reappeared, in floods of tears, though i'm not entirely certain why, and I comforted her. She doesn't liked being hugged, so it was awkward at first (i had to bend my knees and sort of hold her shoulder, for some reason), but eventually she let me hold her and she had a good cry while we lay on the couch and I hugged her. Everyone else was upstairs, and I was aware that we were in a bungalow, but that didn't change the fact they were upstairs, and after a while Roz cheered up and made me prmise not to tell anyone what had upset her (and now I can't remember, which is either ironic or interesting). Anria appearered, bright and chirpy, to tell us everything had been sorted out, and she didn't notice that R was still looking tearful, though she did ask what we were doing on the couch.
And that was my dream. it was a good dream, because I was a good friend and cheered R up, and I worry often about not being a good friend. It's been a bad week (apparantly Tuesday was okay, but i only know that from reading this, as opposed to remembering it) and I found out I'd been particularly tactless last week, saying things that sounded really mean but weren't meant to. I always do things like that and it bothers me like hell, but each time I start afresh I can't seem to keep from doing it again. I've been really overtired all week, and I still am, so hte little things are more upsetting at the moment. I'm not sleeping great, and no matter how long i sleep for, I still wake up tired. It'll pass, eventually, but for now I'm a little prickly.
Been a bad week alround at college, really. Someone died of a heart attack on Thursday, so friday was very subdued and the weaher ws dismal to match. Some of fJ's American friends committed suicide earlier in the week and people have been having relationship problems no end.
I'm suddenly drawing a lot more, lots of pencil landscapes and potentially dodgy pictures. People teased Roz when she said the naked female form is much more aethetically pleasing than the naked male, but it's true. i keep drawing scantily clad women, either facing away, or strategically covered. I don't feel like drawing men in the same way, though i have in the past. Also started watching dodgy programs on ITV2, but when it's that or Wimbledon it makes sense ^_^ I think I am possibly becoming less' straight-acting', as the personal ads put it, though not a lot more. Imight be gay, I might be bisexual, i might be asexual, i might be straight... I don't know. Not huge with the caring, either.
It's sunny now, but not too hot, and I'm wearing a dress because it took the elast effort to put on. I have many summery dresses, but they all cling to my hips in unflattering ways, so i have to wear a cardigan over them. Still, I look cute, so happy. And it's such a nice day, I'm oging outside to finish reading the last book in tDiR sequence, and then off to write fanfiction and draw more pictures. ^_^
And that was my dream. it was a good dream, because I was a good friend and cheered R up, and I worry often about not being a good friend. It's been a bad week (apparantly Tuesday was okay, but i only know that from reading this, as opposed to remembering it) and I found out I'd been particularly tactless last week, saying things that sounded really mean but weren't meant to. I always do things like that and it bothers me like hell, but each time I start afresh I can't seem to keep from doing it again. I've been really overtired all week, and I still am, so hte little things are more upsetting at the moment. I'm not sleeping great, and no matter how long i sleep for, I still wake up tired. It'll pass, eventually, but for now I'm a little prickly.
Been a bad week alround at college, really. Someone died of a heart attack on Thursday, so friday was very subdued and the weaher ws dismal to match. Some of fJ's American friends committed suicide earlier in the week and people have been having relationship problems no end.
I'm suddenly drawing a lot more, lots of pencil landscapes and potentially dodgy pictures. People teased Roz when she said the naked female form is much more aethetically pleasing than the naked male, but it's true. i keep drawing scantily clad women, either facing away, or strategically covered. I don't feel like drawing men in the same way, though i have in the past. Also started watching dodgy programs on ITV2, but when it's that or Wimbledon it makes sense ^_^ I think I am possibly becoming less' straight-acting', as the personal ads put it, though not a lot more. Imight be gay, I might be bisexual, i might be asexual, i might be straight... I don't know. Not huge with the caring, either.
It's sunny now, but not too hot, and I'm wearing a dress because it took the elast effort to put on. I have many summery dresses, but they all cling to my hips in unflattering ways, so i have to wear a cardigan over them. Still, I look cute, so happy. And it's such a nice day, I'm oging outside to finish reading the last book in tDiR sequence, and then off to write fanfiction and draw more pictures. ^_^
