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There’s no such thing as good, and there’s no such thing as evil. It’s all one shade of grey, when you get right down to it. And I’ve been as low as a person can go. You want to know why I don’t care about the people I fuck, the people I hurt, the people I kill? I don’t believe it matters.
The good die young, and the bad have all the fun. That’s the top to bottom of it, and I chose to have fun. Can you blame me? Of course not, you wouldn’t be here if you did.
“I know I’ve done some bad things, and no matter what people say, they were my fault. At the time I wasn’t able to acknowledge that, but I’m an adult now-”
“You could have fooled me.”
“I’m trying to be serious here, Jaina. You have to take responsibility for your actions, and I know you do, but you also have to recognise when things are out of your control. You couldn’t have done anything to save Anakin.”
“You weren’t there, you don’t know! You can’t imagine what I went through, losing him. I feel like I killed him-”
“Jaina…”
“Sith, I forgot! I’m sorry, Kyp.”
“People usually forget. It’s like my life began when Carida died, and all anyone can see is what happened after. They don’t look beyond that, can’t see what led up to it and hat it led to. Don’t say ‘sorry’, Jaina, it’s just a word. You’ll get sick of hearing it one day. Don’t let them do it to you. Don’t let them forget that you’re a person, and you hurt. People think Jedi don’t feel.”
“That would be nice.”
“Not feeling? Do you really believe that?”
“Would last night have happened if I did?”
“I just wanted to throttle the little brats, you know? Or drown them in the damn paddling pool they kept peeing in. It’s like scores of demon Oompa-Loompas, but not luminescent orange. You remember how badly they scared me? I just wanted to drown them in that chocolate river.”
“I pray to God that you never have kids.”
“Me too! What with being male and all…”
“I didn’t mean it like that and you know it.”
“…and gay.”
“Oh. Yeah. Good point.”
“Unless there’s something he’s not telling me…”
“And now I’m officially freaked out. Thank you so very much.”
I got a new phone today! It's one of those dinky samsung ones. Early bday present. They were showing us several, and mum originally wanted to get me the chearper nokia, but I wanted a samsung, mostly for hte flip top andblue screen (I'm shallow, but not a trendy). Suddeny, mum, harry and the shop assistant get it lodged in their heads I want the newest samsung. I try and explain, rpeatedly that I don't care which version it is, but they decide that since 'I've got my heart set on' the new one, they'll be nice and get me the new one. So, slight guilt, but it was only £20 more, which isn't so bad. Also bought myself new necklace and matching earrings, the second book of tDiR for 50p (v pleased with that!), Jacobi's present, part of Sophie's present and a handful of magazines. Wallet much emptier, bag much fuller, and I'm babysitting again on wednesday so another shopping trip next weekend to get more stuff for Sophie. Retail Therapy good!
There’s no such thing as good, and there’s no such thing as evil. It’s all one shade of grey, when you get right down to it. And I’ve been as low as a person can go. You want to know why I don’t care about the people I fuck, the people I hurt, the people I kill? I don’t believe it matters.
The good die young, and the bad have all the fun. That’s the top to bottom of it, and I chose to have fun. Can you blame me? Of course not, you wouldn’t be here if you did.
“I know I’ve done some bad things, and no matter what people say, they were my fault. At the time I wasn’t able to acknowledge that, but I’m an adult now-”
“You could have fooled me.”
“I’m trying to be serious here, Jaina. You have to take responsibility for your actions, and I know you do, but you also have to recognise when things are out of your control. You couldn’t have done anything to save Anakin.”
“You weren’t there, you don’t know! You can’t imagine what I went through, losing him. I feel like I killed him-”
“Jaina…”
“Sith, I forgot! I’m sorry, Kyp.”
“People usually forget. It’s like my life began when Carida died, and all anyone can see is what happened after. They don’t look beyond that, can’t see what led up to it and hat it led to. Don’t say ‘sorry’, Jaina, it’s just a word. You’ll get sick of hearing it one day. Don’t let them do it to you. Don’t let them forget that you’re a person, and you hurt. People think Jedi don’t feel.”
“That would be nice.”
“Not feeling? Do you really believe that?”
“Would last night have happened if I did?”
“I just wanted to throttle the little brats, you know? Or drown them in the damn paddling pool they kept peeing in. It’s like scores of demon Oompa-Loompas, but not luminescent orange. You remember how badly they scared me? I just wanted to drown them in that chocolate river.”
“I pray to God that you never have kids.”
“Me too! What with being male and all…”
“I didn’t mean it like that and you know it.”
“…and gay.”
“Oh. Yeah. Good point.”
“Unless there’s something he’s not telling me…”
“And now I’m officially freaked out. Thank you so very much.”
I got a new phone today! It's one of those dinky samsung ones. Early bday present. They were showing us several, and mum originally wanted to get me the chearper nokia, but I wanted a samsung, mostly for hte flip top andblue screen (I'm shallow, but not a trendy). Suddeny, mum, harry and the shop assistant get it lodged in their heads I want the newest samsung. I try and explain, rpeatedly that I don't care which version it is, but they decide that since 'I've got my heart set on' the new one, they'll be nice and get me the new one. So, slight guilt, but it was only £20 more, which isn't so bad. Also bought myself new necklace and matching earrings, the second book of tDiR for 50p (v pleased with that!), Jacobi's present, part of Sophie's present and a handful of magazines. Wallet much emptier, bag much fuller, and I'm babysitting again on wednesday so another shopping trip next weekend to get more stuff for Sophie. Retail Therapy good!
