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minervasoloWhen did I become a person who cries? I swear, please, take me off hte pill. It never did anything for my sex drive, and I was quite happy with no periods. And I'm sick of being a person who cries.
Working 9-4 tomorrow, and my boss is very likely to be irritated with me, since there was a whole erfuffle sorting that out because I couldn't remember what time my driving lesson was. I have to give her a list of all my driving lessons, so it won't clash with work. She wants it for the month, but my test is in just over a week so it really all depends on if I pass or fail, doesn't it?
Did some driving practicee afterwards, which reminded me that I hate driving with Harry. He can't play examiner because he doesn't know how, but he keeps insisting on it anyway. An examiner would say "take the next turn on your right" (I hope!). Harry says, "Turn right here" when you're ten metres from the turn and going at forty. He also talks way too much. I do not want to hear 'good'. I don't like compliments at hte best of times, and when I'm driving it's bloody distracting. I know perfectly well how I'm doing. Yes, even when I'm doing bad. You can't hear it, but there's this little internal monologue going "too close to that car left a bit mirror check speed up forgot to check mirror there check side road brake forgot to check mirror lane discipline"
I swear, i'm going to pass this test. I'm going to pass this test so i never have to drive again. No. More. Lessons. ...Actually, the lessons are fine. It's the practice I hate. And I really don't enjoy driving, which I've been saying since the beginning but no one has believed me at all. I did say it was a waste of money. It's not like I'm going to be driving at Uni. So I pass, and there's three years of nothing. What kind of standard am I going to be next time I get in a car? Andmaybe it is easier to learn now, but I know my ability to judge distance isn't going to get any better or worse (can't really get worse...) and my lack of observational skills have been the same for years. I am so much more a theory person (and that took two goes thanks to the hazard perception test. Told you: observational skills)
So, working 9-4 tomorrow, then a driving lesosn 5:30-7:30. I fully expect more tearfullness. On the plus side, I'm getting better at staying in control for a short amount of time, and my nose doesn't actually swell up and turn bright red until after the tears, instead of as a warning before. Though i still get purple rashes and red puffiness around my eyes that basically make me look liek I've been oscked in teh face. I know this because I watched myself in a mirror today, and smirked because I look so damn daft.
Working 9-4 tomorrow, and my boss is very likely to be irritated with me, since there was a whole erfuffle sorting that out because I couldn't remember what time my driving lesson was. I have to give her a list of all my driving lessons, so it won't clash with work. She wants it for the month, but my test is in just over a week so it really all depends on if I pass or fail, doesn't it?
Did some driving practicee afterwards, which reminded me that I hate driving with Harry. He can't play examiner because he doesn't know how, but he keeps insisting on it anyway. An examiner would say "take the next turn on your right" (I hope!). Harry says, "Turn right here" when you're ten metres from the turn and going at forty. He also talks way too much. I do not want to hear 'good'. I don't like compliments at hte best of times, and when I'm driving it's bloody distracting. I know perfectly well how I'm doing. Yes, even when I'm doing bad. You can't hear it, but there's this little internal monologue going "too close to that car left a bit mirror check speed up forgot to check mirror there check side road brake forgot to check mirror lane discipline"
I swear, i'm going to pass this test. I'm going to pass this test so i never have to drive again. No. More. Lessons. ...Actually, the lessons are fine. It's the practice I hate. And I really don't enjoy driving, which I've been saying since the beginning but no one has believed me at all. I did say it was a waste of money. It's not like I'm going to be driving at Uni. So I pass, and there's three years of nothing. What kind of standard am I going to be next time I get in a car? Andmaybe it is easier to learn now, but I know my ability to judge distance isn't going to get any better or worse (can't really get worse...) and my lack of observational skills have been the same for years. I am so much more a theory person (and that took two goes thanks to the hazard perception test. Told you: observational skills)
So, working 9-4 tomorrow, then a driving lesosn 5:30-7:30. I fully expect more tearfullness. On the plus side, I'm getting better at staying in control for a short amount of time, and my nose doesn't actually swell up and turn bright red until after the tears, instead of as a warning before. Though i still get purple rashes and red puffiness around my eyes that basically make me look liek I've been oscked in teh face. I know this because I watched myself in a mirror today, and smirked because I look so damn daft.
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Date: 6/9/04 12:14 pm (UTC)