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[minervasolo]

A post of lady_jaida's recently made me realise how lucky I've been. For a start, uniform. People complain, but school uniform is a good idea. Especially if, like me, you were still wearing leggings in year 8. Even Chloe knew better than that at the same time. And then I wonder how I failed to be bullied. I'm a geek. It's blatant and obvious. I talked about fanfiction to people who only used the internet for MSN. I freely admitted to reading Star Wars on those little bits of paper we had to fill in three times a year about how everything was going. I spent many lunch times in the library or computer rooms. I have bad skin, glasses, and I could easily lose quite a bit of weight. And the worst I ever got? My 'best' friend teasing me lightly about changing form like 'gay dragons' to 'gay vampires'. It didn't even register as offensive, which it probably wasn't meant as.

So... how? I mean, the uniform saved me to a certain extent, and it being a private school meant that you were expected to be very smart (at Clo's school you can get teased for that, something which I just don't get). But other than that, I guess all I can say is I baffled people. It wasn't that I was proud of being a geek (as I claim to be now), it was that I didn't realise that I was being weird. And no one pointed it out to me.

As it is, I'm even geekier now (though at least I can acknowledge the superiority of hard SF over television and film spinoffs), my taste in clothes is still dire, my taste in music is non-existant and physically I've just got worse, really. The only thing I've learnt is not to wax lyrical about things other people aren't interested into the same extent as you are.

Though it still amuses me that Ben asked me out shortly after uttering this little gem: "Don't you get bullied at school? I mean, hasn't anyone ever said 'haven't you ever heard of clearasil' to you?" To which I answered, "No, it's not like that. I guess it must be because it's an all girl school." I guess all those oft-mentioned 'bitchy-girls at high school' were too busy being bitchy about each other to notice someone like me.

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[mericangrl.livejournal.com]

You aren't geeky! You're lovely! My theory is - people who think they're cool (and go out of their way to prove that they're cool) usually aren't. The people who I think are really cool are the people who can acknowledge their strange little quirks and embrace them. People who are really cool don't go out of their way to be assholes (like some pikeys at college). People who are really cool are people like you!!!! Sorry...it's not supposed to sound sappy. :P