Here comes the angst...
27/3/03 02:58 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
minervasoloEver have one of those days when everything goes right, but the total outcome is wrong? Sorta like the whole being greater than the sumof its parts.
I have Communications Essay due in today. I didn't find this out until three days ago, but we've had it since before xmas so i can't really complain. Naturally, left it til alst night. Got it all finished, but realised I need to know one of my source websites for my bibliography. No problem, thinks I, I have it at school. Print and save essay to disc. Bring to school, friend helps me find all my errors (oh, there's always a lot when i type stuff, you may have noticed) so I decide to alter it and print it out again, with the added site to my bibliography. One small probem, the school computers refuse to believe the disc is formatted. This is good, because I can show my teacher the rough and finish it in my own time. This is bad because almost no one has done it and I just know it's going to be me she yells at.
other good/bad thing. My friend is all cheery and happy again. i love it when she's like this. _love_ it. See problem? She in no way feels the same way, and I've never mentioned it to her.
Argh! She just came in and sat and chatted to me. Talk about timing! My heart is going like a steam engine. I was sitting here think 'shit, what if she reads it? should I stop typing or is that suspicious? What do i do if she does read it? What the fuck do I do now???' She didn't read it. I think.
She's gone now :( Usually she hangs around with me in my communications lesson, as we get let out to write this damn essay and I muck about on the internet. But now she's gone home. Conflicting emotions - glad she didn't stick around as she'd have insisted on reading this, sad coz she didn't stick around. I had a huge crush on her, then it faded, now it's back. Why couldn't it stay gone? She has categorically stated that she thinksof me as a sister.
I promised myself I wouldn't do this. I filled my blog with anggsting about this crush. And as this is way more public and I'm going to give her an LJ, it doesn't make much sense toput it here. Passive aggressive confrontation techniques. I won't tell you, but I'll tell people who will tell you and force you to confrton me, rather than the other way around. Hasn't worked yet.
oh well. It's sunny. That's good. See, I can be positive in any situation
I have Communications Essay due in today. I didn't find this out until three days ago, but we've had it since before xmas so i can't really complain. Naturally, left it til alst night. Got it all finished, but realised I need to know one of my source websites for my bibliography. No problem, thinks I, I have it at school. Print and save essay to disc. Bring to school, friend helps me find all my errors (oh, there's always a lot when i type stuff, you may have noticed) so I decide to alter it and print it out again, with the added site to my bibliography. One small probem, the school computers refuse to believe the disc is formatted. This is good, because I can show my teacher the rough and finish it in my own time. This is bad because almost no one has done it and I just know it's going to be me she yells at.
other good/bad thing. My friend is all cheery and happy again. i love it when she's like this. _love_ it. See problem? She in no way feels the same way, and I've never mentioned it to her.
Argh! She just came in and sat and chatted to me. Talk about timing! My heart is going like a steam engine. I was sitting here think 'shit, what if she reads it? should I stop typing or is that suspicious? What do i do if she does read it? What the fuck do I do now???' She didn't read it. I think.
She's gone now :( Usually she hangs around with me in my communications lesson, as we get let out to write this damn essay and I muck about on the internet. But now she's gone home. Conflicting emotions - glad she didn't stick around as she'd have insisted on reading this, sad coz she didn't stick around. I had a huge crush on her, then it faded, now it's back. Why couldn't it stay gone? She has categorically stated that she thinksof me as a sister.
I promised myself I wouldn't do this. I filled my blog with anggsting about this crush. And as this is way more public and I'm going to give her an LJ, it doesn't make much sense toput it here. Passive aggressive confrontation techniques. I won't tell you, but I'll tell people who will tell you and force you to confrton me, rather than the other way around. Hasn't worked yet.
oh well. It's sunny. That's good. See, I can be positive in any situation
