*raises hand* Excuse me, but denial isn't working for me anymore. Can you suggest something else?

[minervasolo]

I have my first A/S level in twelve and a half hours.

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Yep, that basically sums it up. I spent several hours writing Psychology notes today, woo me for actually doing some kind of revision, but it's a Physics practical I've got first thing tomorrow. How are you supposed to revise for that anyway? And no matter what they say, I'm bringing a bag. I need somewhere to put revision notes and exam entry shit. It'll just have to be a crappy bag that no one will want to nick.

And again with the ohshits. I also have a job interview tomorrow. PLan - go to college, stew in communicado for an hour, take prac, come home, shower etc, go back to town containing college, go to interview, stew, come home. Wail.

I'm so not going to sleep tonight. I've been having enough trouble as it is, and now the comfroting shields of denial are faling away... Note to self: buy sedatives, or whatever the drugs that send you to sleep are called. No way I'm going to survive the exams without them.

Need...to...write. I'm stressed ergo I'm creative If only I could draw. I have three years worth of comics sketched out in my head, plot and all, and it's the sort of thing that would only work as an ongoing serial, not a book. I know what I want the characters to look like, though none actually have names (this always happens to me, I can envision an entire novel just referring to the characters mentally as him, the other him, her, she, it etc...). I'm not that bad at drawing, if I do say so myself, though I always get the heads out of proportion. The problem is consistancy. I can draw the same person thrity or fourty times, and each one will be different enoughfor them al to look likedifferent people. Not good for a comic, ne?

So, soon there will be deluge so fanfiction, original short stories, and possibly an attempt to start writing one of the several novel's i've started. One is half done, but since I started when i was thriteen the style starts off quite juvenile, the other was more recent but the plot is a bit jagged, jumping from mini-climax to mini-climax so that it actually has no real climax. I need to work on smoothing that one out. Still, all inspired and stress makes me type fast, so all good! Except not, becase stress is direct result of writing instead of revising, and posting on LJ too many times a day.

Oh, guess what I forgot to mention earier? My sister has a girlfriend. Guess who... Still not entirely sure whether this will actually work, but L is such a sweet girl. And nuts. She and my sis are two peas in a pod like that. So, should be interesting...

So, tired, hyper and stressed. No way I'm sleeping. Shit. ging to go to bed and hope, anyway. Manic typing not really helping situation. Ive noticed that when i type when i'm in this mood, I almost always hit the right keys, but almost never in hte right order. And is I write fics when I'm stressed, it's not wonder people complain about teh typos.

Wowo, post getting rahter long for soemthing sums up as 'shit. exam. shit. stressed. shit. tired.' Basically - shit!



right. done. mostly. honestly. definitely.

Aaaarrrrggghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

ttfn

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[almighty-frog.livejournal.com]

Is the "L" who I think it is? In which case she's confusing herself again. ::shakes head:: Sorry, got random email from her a few days ago - and you said before it was a Physics mock! Evil woman . . . well, good luck! Sorry about you being in incommunicado - why, BTW? It sounds like you only have one exam tomorrow, so there can't have been a clash, can there? And don't keep stewing - by the time I see you next you'll be some form of casserole if you don't calm down. Write something - and go to bed early. Like, now. Focus on your breathing and don't think of exams. I know that since you're swearing you're really worked up - so listen to something slow and soothing right before going to bed, and try to hold it in your head. ::shrugs:: Works for me.

Basically, calm down. You will be fine, you're a friggin' genius for christ's sake! ^_^

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[minervasolo.livejournal.com]

::huggles:: We need to do friend stuff soon. I decided this at about 11 last night. lots of hanging out and general relaxness.

L=Lizzard.

Did I say mock? I wish! Incommunicade because there's not enough equipment to go round, s half of us have to wait. Actually, three quarters of us, but half the students don't have the prac til thrusday.

Big writing plans... Ghost story! Woo. Need to note it down then forget about it, really. Keep doing that with stroies. I have an illegible book ^_^

Listened to slow soothing music to send me to sleep. Worked, oddly enough.