8/2/05
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8/2/05 01:15 pmSmall smug smile.
It was huge grin, but I always feel a bit silly beaming to myself in an empty room.
Apparently, I'm Not That Subtle. And, um, yes. Ignored all the wonderful advice. Unintentionally, of course. On hte other hand, I wasn't misreading signals. I think. Though he's seen signals from long enough ago that I'm not sure there were signals, or concrete ones, at least.
I keep expecting to be terrified. Maybe that'll kick in later. Certainly, there was a wonderfully fatalistic conversation about where this all might go. We both seem to have a pretty relaxed attitude to that, and fully expect each other to run hot and cold.
Someone tell me how this is meant to go, coz I just don't know.
I don't think essay is going to get done any time soon. Maybe tonight. Probably shouldn't go to DougSoc. Unless someone wants 'support'.
I am going to fuck this up so badly.
It was huge grin, but I always feel a bit silly beaming to myself in an empty room.
Apparently, I'm Not That Subtle. And, um, yes. Ignored all the wonderful advice. Unintentionally, of course. On hte other hand, I wasn't misreading signals. I think. Though he's seen signals from long enough ago that I'm not sure there were signals, or concrete ones, at least.
I keep expecting to be terrified. Maybe that'll kick in later. Certainly, there was a wonderfully fatalistic conversation about where this all might go. We both seem to have a pretty relaxed attitude to that, and fully expect each other to run hot and cold.
Someone tell me how this is meant to go, coz I just don't know.
I don't think essay is going to get done any time soon. Maybe tonight. Probably shouldn't go to DougSoc. Unless someone wants 'support'.
I am going to fuck this up so badly.