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25/11/03 09:45 pmWhy can i never decide whether a day has been bad or good? Probably has something to do with me forgetting huge chunks of it as soon as it's over. I think the general mood right now is bad. I'm not sure. The only actual bad thing that has happened is my bag breaking, unless you count Cmabridge stress still knocking about. Well, not so much as Cambridge stress as 'why is eveyrone else still stresed about Cambridge' stress. I just don't see hte point in worrying about something once it's out of your hands.
Sel is coming to Roz's party. Sel really wants to be friends with Roz again, and Roz really wants to be friends with her, so Sel coming is a good thing becuase it shows she's oveocming her own stubbornness.
It's a bad thing because Tor, gRosie and kirsten are also coming, and she hates them and they hate her. Luckily, Roz has invited a lot of people, so it should be relatively esay to keep people separated. Lots of pasive aggressive remarks will be exchanged in an 'I'm insulting you but you can't object because i'm pretending I'm tlaking about something else and that it's a private conversation you can't hear, even though I know you can and it is directed at you purposely' kind of way.
Part of me doesn't want to go, because I know how these things go and plus, people will be drinking (still off that, btw). But it's Roz's 18th, so of course I'm going. I'll just find a corner to hide in when things get nasty. Or drunken.
I have a sudden urge to take a book. I've got to do that at colege more often. It's easier than sitting there and pretending to pay attention, if you'r reading people don't expect you to follow the conversation. And I actually did read, which was good. Though I've started wandering off again. Did that a lot at GHS. I'd get bored and go for a walk around the school. Sometimes as many as six times during lunch. It's relaxing, and burns off a bit of restless energy, and wakes me up, a bit, but it's hardly socially whatsit. So book. And maybe a pillow.
See, this is why i feel I've been having bad days, when nothing bad has hapened. Bad attitude. Madaptive thinking. Cognitive errors. I had a psychology test today, can you tell?
Sel is coming to Roz's party. Sel really wants to be friends with Roz again, and Roz really wants to be friends with her, so Sel coming is a good thing becuase it shows she's oveocming her own stubbornness.
It's a bad thing because Tor, gRosie and kirsten are also coming, and she hates them and they hate her. Luckily, Roz has invited a lot of people, so it should be relatively esay to keep people separated. Lots of pasive aggressive remarks will be exchanged in an 'I'm insulting you but you can't object because i'm pretending I'm tlaking about something else and that it's a private conversation you can't hear, even though I know you can and it is directed at you purposely' kind of way.
Part of me doesn't want to go, because I know how these things go and plus, people will be drinking (still off that, btw). But it's Roz's 18th, so of course I'm going. I'll just find a corner to hide in when things get nasty. Or drunken.
I have a sudden urge to take a book. I've got to do that at colege more often. It's easier than sitting there and pretending to pay attention, if you'r reading people don't expect you to follow the conversation. And I actually did read, which was good. Though I've started wandering off again. Did that a lot at GHS. I'd get bored and go for a walk around the school. Sometimes as many as six times during lunch. It's relaxing, and burns off a bit of restless energy, and wakes me up, a bit, but it's hardly socially whatsit. So book. And maybe a pillow.
See, this is why i feel I've been having bad days, when nothing bad has hapened. Bad attitude. Madaptive thinking. Cognitive errors. I had a psychology test today, can you tell?
